In the sterile hum of the waiting room, I find myself perched on the edge of a too-hard plastic chair, the kind that makes you wish for anything softer. Around me, the air is thick with the antiseptic tang that hospitals specialise in, mixed with the undercurrent of worry that seems to be everyone’s unwanted companion. The magazine in my lap lies forgotten, its pages filled with the promise of distraction I no longer have the heart to seek.
I’m not sure when this place, with its flickering fluorescent lights and the relentless tick of the clock, became a regular fixture in my life. It seems like only yesterday that I was on the outside, glancing in through its windows with a mix of curiosity and detachment. Now, here I sit, a fixture as much as the chairs and the potted plants, waiting.
The faces around me are a blur of stories untold. Each person carries their own burden, their own reasons for being here. And yet, in this moment, we share a commonality—a thread of understanding that binds us together in silent solidarity. We are all waiting. Waiting for news, for answers, for a reprieve.
I can’t help but think back to a time when the biggest decision I had to make was what to cook for dinner or which film to watch on a Friday night. Now, those mundane choices seem like luxuries, taken for granted in a life that was once filled with so much simplicity it almost seemed dull.
My mind drifts to him, to the reason I sit here today. It’s funny, isn’t it? How quickly our priorities can shift, how the ground beneath us can just give way, leaving us scrambling for something—anything—to hold onto. He’s my rock, my reason, and now, as I wait for the door to open and for a face to emerge with news I’m both desperate and terrified to hear, I realise just how much of my world revolves around his orbit.
The waiting is the hardest part—the not knowing. It’s a limbo of sorts, a purgatory where hope and fear dance a delicate tango, each step measured, each breath held. I find myself bargaining with God, promising anything, everything, if only for a favourable outcome.
I glance at the clock again, its hands mocking me with their steady progression. Time, it seems, has a cruel sense of humour, moving both too swiftly and too slowly all at once. I close my eyes, take a deep breath, and muster the semblance of calm. I have to be strong, for him, for us.
Because that’s what you do when you love someone. You wait, you hope, and you hold onto the flicker of light in the darkness, no matter how faint it may seem. And you believe, with every fibre of your being, that somehow, someway, everything will be alright.
So here I sit, in the waiting room, surrounded by strangers yet feeling more connected to them than ever before. We are all warriors in our own right, fighting battles unseen, holding onto hope as our shield. And as the door finally opens, my heart skips a beat, ready for whatever comes next.